A graceful unravelling of grief

A graceful unravelling of grief

 

It’s layered

You’re so graceful they said

You handled this amazingly, they said

My face strong but my hands weak

 

It’s a loss all over again

It’s a new view on what was

It’s a heart reshattered with a new stripe

It’s the shedding of another skin

 

Why

When I look in this new world did I feel lost

Not seen

Not heard

No eye contact

Are my eyes your unravelling?

What if they’re not?

 

The chaos

The cold and the rigid

The emptiness I saw

I longed to fill that once

Not now

Not ever

There’s no coming back

Even though my heart reshatters

 

Reckless

Internal

Selfish

Godless

Peaceless

You

 

A forever lonely beating heart

Searching

 

It’s not my burden

It’s not my love

It’s not for me

 

Gone

 

My unravelling graceless grief

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